When Friends Break Up

Let This Be That

Dear Ones,

There are endings we’re able to recognize.

A romance. A marriage. A job. A move. A death.

And then there’s an ending no one quite knows how to hold, because it doesn’t come with a ceremony or a script.

This post is about the loss of a friendship. The kind of loss that hurts. The kind that leaves cracks in the story of your life, and often follows you into your dreams for years. It’s also about the slow, honest work of letting those cracks become part of the story, filled not with denial, but with gold.

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When Friends Break Up

Breaking up with a friend is a loss that we rarely have language for, even though it can break a heart wide open. There is a popular saying, attributed to a few different people, that “friends come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.” I’m talking about the lifetime kind. The kind of friendship that becomes a landmark, imprinted on your soul. I’m talking about losing your bestie. The friend you’ve had for decades. Your ride or die. The Thelma to your Louise. The Gayle to your Oprah. The person you assumed would be there at the end of your life and vice-versa.

Sometimes, the unthinkable happens. Even best friends break up.

Some friendships have a history so thick it becomes a second language. These are the friends who live in your calendar, woven into your routine and your nervous system. They’re not just in your life. They’re part of how you move through it.

And there’s a truth many of us don’t say out loud:

Sometimes a friendship can hold an intimacy that surprises us. Not because one love is better than another, but because it’s different. A friend like this knows the unedited version of you, the tender parts, the private language. She’s the midnight person. The one who comes when you call. The one on speed dial. This kind of friendship is the safe place, where you can be goofy, imperfect, and fully yourself, and be loved anyway.

When a friendship like that ends, it can feel devastating. It hurts. It can feel like a death, except they’re still alive. You see them everywhere. You miss them in the ordinary places. But bigger than that, you miss who you were in that bond. You miss the ordinary certainty of them.

There is a particular pain in losing a living person.
They’re still out there.
And you’re the one left holding the absence.

There’s no funeral for this type of loss. There’s no script, no collective permission to grieve. People sometimes treat it like a misunderstanding that can be solved with one more conversation, one more coffee, one more talk it out. But some endings aren’t misunderstandings. Sometimes trust shatters.

When trust is shattered, the relationship becomes unsafe in a way that’s hard to explain. You can’t relax into it anymore. You can’t tell the truth without calculating the cost. You can’t show up the same way without wondering if you’re being held, or being lied to.

This is the moment people try to override themselves.

“We’ve been friends for decades. We should be able to get past this.”

But longevity is not proof of safety. And history does not entitle someone to future access. People change. Things shift. And a soul always knows when something is complete.

So when it’s time you walk away.

The hard part is that leaving isn’t always clean and easy. It doesn’t erase the love. It doesn’t erase the laughter. It doesn’t erase what was real. It simply means you are no longer willing to abandon yourself to keep the connection alive.

So you grieve it like it mattered, because it did. You don’t minimize it because it wasn’t romantic. You don’t rush yourself to be over it. You let it be a real loss.

And you make a vow, the kind you keep in your body:

I will not trade my peace for proximity.

I will not keep trying to mend what no longer opens into trust.

I will not stay in a relationship where I do not feel held.

And then you bless what you once had and move on.

Bless This Friendship

Bless the golden friendship we shared,
not because it didn’t matter, but because it did.
Bless what was true.
Bless what carried me.
Bless the love we shared and what we taught one another.
I release what I can’t hold safely anymore.

Let this be that.

Kintsugi

In Japan, there’s an art called kintsugi, where broken pottery is repaired with lacquer mixed with gold. The fractures aren’t hidden. They’re traced. Honored. The break becomes part of the story.

Let this be that. Not erased, but integrated.

If this is your story too, I hope you’ll trust that the cracks in your story won’t define you. Know this …What you pour into them will.

Love,

Mary Ann

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My Blessing for You

May what ended return to you as wisdom.

May what cracked be filled with gold.

May you be protected from what drains you.

May you always be drawn toward what is clean and truthful.

May you trust what is steady, what is kind, your intuition.

May you move forward without hatred, without longing for what no longer exists.

And may you know that the love you gave was not wasted.

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Thank you for stopping by and reading, for showing up time and time again, for witnessing. I value you and I’m grateful for your time. If this piece moved you, may it meet you where you are, and may it offer you something steady.

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Sources:

Kintsugi source: Sakura Co, “The Art of Kintsugi Pottery: Japan’s Golden Repair.” Kintsugi

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